Thursday, June 17, 2010

THE OLIVER TWIST NEVER HAVE ENOUGH SYNDROME


EVER HAD THAT MOMENT OF EMPTINESS?
EVER HAD THAT EMPTY MOMENT WHEN YOU ARE SO SURE YOU HAVE FOUND MR RIGHT OR MS RIGHT, YET THE LIGHTNESS JUST WON’T GO AWAY?
ANYONE?
WELL, I HAVE HAD THAT FEELING BEFORE AND TRUST ME IF YOU ARE SOMEONE LIKE ME WHO FIGHTS TO SELF TO ACKNOWLEDGE FALLING INLOVE AND THEN DOES THAT WHOLE-HEARTEDLY, THEN YOU ARE IN TROUBLE!
NOW HOLD ON! I NEVER SAID THE SITUATION IS DEAD BAD, IF YOU HAVE HAD THAT FEELING BEFORE, IT MAY ONLY MEAN YOU MAY BE “DEEP”.
THE THING IS, THAT FEELING IS NOT SYNANYMOUS TO JUST “THE THING CALLED LOVE”, BUT APPLICABLE TO REAL LIFE ISSUES, ISSUES THAT MAY AFFECT US EMOTIONALLY AND WHICH CAN TRANSCEND TO YOUR PERSONALITY OUTPUT OR RELATIONSHIP WITH OTHERS AND EVEN WORK.
OK SO BY NOW I KNOW YOU ARE PRE-EMPTING MY NEXT LINE, WHY THIS PIECE? WELL LET ME PLAY TO YOUR GALARY THEN.
I FOUND A VERY DISTURBING LETTER IN MY INBOX, CONTAINED IN THE LETTER WAS THE WORDS OF A CONFUSED WOMAN SO TO SPEAK.
HER LIMBO? EMPTINESS! GREY AS SHE CALLED HERSELF; DESCRIBED IN THE BEGINNING OF THE LETTER A “FAIRY TALE MAN” FOR A BOYFRIEND!
THE GUY WAS SPOTLESS (OR SO SHE THOUGHT) LOVING (WHICH NOW I SURMISED FROM HER LETTER SHE WASN’T EVEN SURE OF) CARING, PATIENT, ENDERING, FUN WHEN IT PLEASED HIM BUT ECCENTRIC AND THAT WAS ONE OF THE THINGS SHE LOVED ABOUT HIM.GREY SAID IT TOOK HER QUITE A WHILE TO WARM UP TO HIM, BEING A VICTIM OF HEARTBREAKS SHE GAURDED HERSELF AND EMOTIONS FROM ANY “TROUBLE”.
WELL, FINALLY SHE GAVE IN TO HER EMOTIONS AND IN HER OWN WORDS “IT WAS SO GOOD IN BEING TRUE” AND SHE WANTED ALL THE TIME WITH HIM (ok if you are a guy reading this, u are at this point permitted to roll your eyes) EVERYTHING WENT ON SO FAST, SHE JUST COULDN’T STOP THEM FROM HAPPENING (I became psychic here knowing where this part meant).
GREY NOW TALKED ABOUT HER ACTUAL LIMBO “IT STRUCK ME THAT YES HE PROFESSED LOVE TO ME AND I DID SAME BUT WAIT! FROM THAT MOMENT ON NOTHING WAS DEFINED? IF IT WAS A RELATIONSHIP OR NOT? OR TO WHAT END WAS WHAT THEY WERE DOING”.
ACCORDING TO GREY HER “SPOTLESS MAN” ALWAYS WENT PHILOSOPHICAL ON HER ANYTIME SHE ASKED “SO WHAT ARE? WHAT IS IT? A RELATIONSHIP? WHAT? WHEN DO I GET TO MEET YOUR SO FOND OF BROTHERS?”
NOW SHE ACTUALLY FEELS STRONGLY HE HAS SOMEONE SOMEWHERE, OTHERWISE WHY WOULD HE NOT BE CERTAIN OF WHAT HE WANTS WITH HER! “WORRIED, SCARED, FEELING STUPID THAT HIM OF ALL PEOPLE WOULD TAKE ME FOR GRANTED, AM DIENG INSIDE BECAUSE JUST THE THOUGHT OF HIM (MR SPOTLESS) TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME OR TAKING ME FOR GRANTED GIVES ME SLEEPLESS WINK.
“ITS DIFFIDCULT WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR ME, BUT I HAVE READ THE BLOGS AND THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE PRESENTED A SHOW RELATED TO MATTERS OF THE HEART AND I JUST WANT YOU TO BE CANDID WITH ME, WHETHER YOU ARE A MAN OR WOMAN”….. AM I BEING REALOR BEING OLIVER TWIST?”
MY OPNION? I DO NOT HAVE ONE… QUITE FRANKLY I CANNOT TELL IF HE IS SEING SOMEONE ELSE APART FORM YOU GREY?
I CANNOT BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND HIS INTENTIONS OR MAYBE YOU NEVER WENT INTO DETAILS BUT SEEMS TO ME DESPITE ALL YOUR FEARS YOU DON’T WANT TO LOOSE HIM? (OBVIOUSLY) AND YOU LOVE HIM, EVEN MORE THAN YOU KNOW OR WANT TO ADMIT! AND THAT MAKES WORDS DIFFICULT TO WRITE.
I ASK GREY… “WHICH PART HURTS MORE? THE FACT THAT YOU DON’T KNOW HIS INTENTIONS? OR THAT YOU DON’T THINK IT’S NORMAL TO JUST “GO WITH THE FLOW” (so to speak) AND MOST IMPORTANTLY HAVE YOU TRIED TALKING TO “MR SPOTLESS?”
I MAY HAVE QUITE A NUMBER OF QUESTIONS BUT FOR ME I THINK THESE ARE THE CLOSSEST TO ASK NOW…
NOW TO THE ISSUE, COULD GREY BE HAVING “THE NEVER ENOUGH SYND ROME?” OR IS SHE JUST BEING OLIVER TWIST? THAT’S MY QUESTION TO YOU READING.
FOR ME; I THINK WE ALWAYS DO! WE HUMANS TALK OF THE CHARACTER OLIVER TWIST IN PASSING BUT INFACT OLIVER TWIST CAN BE LIKENED TO US. IN MASLOWS HEIRACHY OF NEEDS, MAN CAN NEVER REACH SELF ACTUALIZATION AND THIS IS TO MEAN EVEN WHEN ONE REACHES THE HIGHEST POINT AS PER DEFINED BY THE ABRAHAM MASLOW’S HIERACHY; ONE STILL YEARNS FOR MORE AND THEN IN ESSENCE HITS THE “LIMBO BUTTON” OF GOING UP! UP! OR STAYING JUST UP!” (Reaching the highest pedigree what would FORMER UN SEC. GEN. & proud son of Ghana Kofi Annan do? Or which part of the hierarchy ladder does he climb now?)
I HOPE AM MAKING SENSE? GREY’S LETTER PUT ME INTO THE QUESTIONING MOOD AND I ASKED AMONG OTHER THINGS IF “THE NEVER HAVE ENOUGH SYNDROME” TRANSCENDS TO EVERYONE, SOME FEW OR JUST GREY?
WE ALL HAVE DESIRES AND INDEED SOME NEVER GET THEIR DESIRES FULFILLED FOR VARIOUS REASONS BUT WHERE THEN DO WE DRAW THE LINE BETWEEN “BEING OLIVER TWIST AND BEING PLAIN GREEDY? OR BEING INSPIRED AND BEING GREEN-EYED WITH ENVY?
WHERE DO YOU DRAW THE LINE?
WHERE DO I DRAW THE LINE?
AND IS GREY BEING JUST A WOMAN OR JUST HUMAN?
THINK ABOUT IT….
YOU MIGHT JUST BE TALKING ABOUT YOURSELF?
…. I’LL BE BACK AND THEN WE TALK ABOUT THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COIN!
(Oh I haven’t forgotten people THERE WILL BE PART TWO OF LET’S TALK ABOUT SEX” SOON)
……a bientot

1 comment:

  1. I think it all starts like that (i.e, if we are not careful!) see, we find people who sort of meet some part of our emotional needs then we give it all to them, letting it go "real fast" before we say Sweetie, or Jack for that matter. She is not asking for more, she is just beginning to know him outside her heart. She is now using her head. Which is quite common of humans. Tell her to step back, study the situation before she takes any move. Because if she makes a mistake, she may regret for the rest of her life. See what I mean?

    -Nii Saki-

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